Friday, April 11, 2014

Poisonous Bite - Continued


My bite is healing-I think.  Very red, but not spreading anymore.  Was itching, so I put some honey on it for a few hours this afternoon...
Was reading in Psalm 103 last night which was a huge encouragement to me...God is the one "who heals all your diseases"- even strange bites from Tanzanian bugs!

Poisonous Spider Bite?



So, no snakes while camping, though some of us thought about it quite a bit.  But I awoke after the first night with a bite on my arm.  Thought at first it was a mosquito bite, but then it gradually became red and raised and spreading in size.  Have been wrapping charcoal-toilet paper poultices on it all day...
Squeezed a bunch of clear liquid out of it yesterday morning... It's not so much painful now as it is itchy... I'm sure it will heal up nicely-just hoping I don't have a permanently blackened arm.
Showed my bite to Mrs. Riederer... she agreed with my original diagnosis-spider bite.
Though I'm not looking forward to it growing in size, I'm glad it is on my arm where I can continually treat it by myself.  I also was marveling at God's perfect timing:  I've been teaching first aid to my standard 2 and 3 Science classes.  We talked about treatment for various poisonous bites.  I introduced them to the idea of charcoal poultices to draw out poison.  This was last week.  I had been thinking, "man, I wish I could bring in some charcoal to show them how to use it, but I'd hate to wast any, and it would be nicer if it were the real thing..."  Ha, this is perfect!  Almost can't wait to show the students my infirmity!  Exciting how God works out His purposes-even if at first we don't understand... Maybe this class on charcoal use will save someones life some day through these kids knowledge of the topic... Then this spiderbite of mine will have been well worth it :)

March - 2014


Here's a photo of me in front of the standard 3 classroom with some primary students.  My hand on Giribati's shoulder, Anton close to my heart, and Laban as straight and true as ever.  Robinson and Kliva making faces.  Anania hiding in the background...This is a candid shot!  Each personality is clearly shown! Wow!
Me and my boys :) Love these kids.

Naughty and Nice, God Gives Love Enough...


"If you get most of the questions right on the test, then you will get a prize afterwards!"

"Miss Teacher, if I get them all right, can I have them ALL?" Anton holds up the small packet of chocolate candies and raises an eyebrow expectantly. I smile back into his mischievous eyes as I remind him again of the rule: only one.

Later I notice a small heap of school-uniform blue on the ground.

Anton? He has his arm over his head, his face to the ground. What could have happened? The group of boys playing football (soccer) seem not to notice as I bend down toward the despondent figure, tapping the small shoulder. A face pops up, displaying an impish grin. He throws his head back in laughter as I realize he wasn't crying after all.

I love that boy. I love that roguish, playful grin of his. Though he is a bit of a rascal, there is something about him that pulls at my heart.

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He sits alone at the desk in the back of the classroom, quiet and unpretentious. He rolls his eyes at the outlandish behavior of his fellow students, exchanging with me a knowing glance. While the others continue their raving madness, this young man voluntarily strides to the front of the room to help me clean up after class. As he wipes the dusty blackboard, I ask him, "What's your name?"

"Robert."

I shake his hand and thank him for being my assistant and for maintaining a calm spirit amidst the chaos. He smiles back, shyly.

Later, Robert meets me as I cross the schoolyard, headed for the teacher's office. With a furtive glance and smile, he silently takes the stack of papers from my hands and ambles along beside me, bearing my burden.

I love that boy. I love his calm, gentle spirit. Though he is a ready helper, it is his unassuming nature that draws me to him.

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Only God could give me the same love for Anton as I have for Robert...

Selfish Pride


Brianna and I just had our first big dispute since the beginning of our friendship. We both felt ill at-ease and troubled over the matter.

And I came face-to-face with the stark human nature of Ashley Tardif.

Brianna left in tears. I felt sick to my stomach. Neither of us "won."

Mopping the bathroom floor, I wrestled with my pride. No matter how good I think I am, all my righteousnesses are still like this filthy rag. I wished to dump my disgusting selfishness out with the pail of mopping water.

Not an hour later, a test of self-denial again occurred. Again, I failed.

"Ashley, I don't have any more shampoo. Do you think I could use yours until I leave? I would only need it like two times," Selena asked.

"Well... I'm going through my shampoo really quickly and I don't have a very big bottle of it to begin with...and I don't know how I will get more when it is gone. Could you possibly ask one of the other girls?"

Ashley, what about the widow of Zarephath? It was only after she gave to Elisha of the little she had left that God supplied for her during the entire famine...

My conscience seared. I returned to Selina to let her know she was welcome to use my shampoo if she would like, but I had lost my opportunity to give.

She didn't want to use up my resources, and insisted that she would ask someone else.

And so I missed out on a miracle God wanted to work for me. I was too busy protecting my assets to receive the blessing God had in store.

Had I been willing to share...

"Lord, be merciful to me, a sinner!"

"This is a faithful saying and worthy of all acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am chief." (I Timothy 1:15)

Africa Changes Everything...


"Africa Changes EVERYTHING." This has become my mantra. It's not every day that a New England girl bikes over a dead chameleon on her way to school...

When I think of snails now, I picture them the size of my fist. A millipede is no longer a thing of about two-inches in length in my mind, because I often see them the length of my sandaled foot.

One month in Africa has changed my perspective on how easy it would be to raise kids in the mission field. It has changed my array of daily activities. It has changed me. I am not as vain as I once was; I don't have time to shower before biking the two-and-a-half miles to school each morning. I'm actually disappointed that I don't have an unsightly scar on my right cheek from the hot oil burns I received two weeks ago. I had been happily anticipating the "what happened to your face?" questions, which would give me opportunity to share about how great of a God we serve. But the lack of that conversation-starter won't keep me from telling others about God's protection in that moment.

I have never been so filled with joy over simple things: a hug from a friend, waking up to sunshine, clean and dry laundry, a method of transportation besides walking, singing hymns, laughter over shared experiences, traipsing barefoot through the grass, and riding atop a land cruiser with the wind in my hair. I smile--just because. I laugh--an overflow of the joy in my heart. I sing--in praise for God's goodness. I've never been so excited to watch a garden grow. But these are seeds that I planted! Food that I will need! As each little sprout pokes its emerald head out into the light, I just want to say, "Congratulations! Welcome to the world! So nice to see you!"

It's Raining, It's Pouring...


I awoke to a steady patter on the roof. The rain which had interrupted my thoughts at ten o'clock the previous evening had not yet ceased to fall. Oh, to stay in bed and forget about riding in the rain! But my clock blinked 6:15, time to get up and hurriedly prepare for the day.

Ready to brave the elements, I asked for the key to the back door.

"You don't have it?" Brianna had managed to misplace our means of escape...

again. We are gaining quite the reputation here :) Thankful for a means of communication at times like these, we texted for help.

A fellow SM (Student Missionary) forfeited some of his precious breakfast time to come and rescue us "damsels in distress."

I aimed to make it to school clean and somewhat dry. About 20 yards down the road, I dismissed that ideal entirely. I arrived at school, feeling like a not-so-spectacular spectacle. The front of my pants looked as if I'd just pulled them from the washing machine and dragged them through a sandbox. Red clay mud and rainwater dripped down my legs like drops of blood. I was grateful for an outdoor water tap and a dry skirt buried in my damp backpack.

Working at washing the grit off my legs, I glanced up as two Tanzanian teachers arrived on foot, their tan trousers entirely spot-free...

Birthday - February 2014


Happy Birthday to Me!


Have you ever questioned which day your birthday was? I never have until this year. Africa changes everything.  You see, I was born on the evening of February 9th, Eastern Standard Time. Which would mean I was born in the wee hours of the morning of February 10th here in Eastern Africa. So. which day is my birthday here? I decided to celebrate both!

February 9th dawned with anticipation in the air. Six of us student missionary girls headed out for a day in Iringa. Speeding down the washed-out road in the back of a pick-up truck, I thought, "What better way to begin a birthday adventure?" And quite an adventure it was! We picked up some "hitchhikers" on our way to Mafinga, where we girls boarded a bus. It cost us only about $2 to ride the hour-and-forty-five-minutes to the city of Iringa. I was grateful that one of the girls who has been at Kibidula for several months knows a substantial amount of conversational Swahili. What an asset that was!


But when the bus made its first stop at the top of the mountain which is Iringa, only two of the girls had time to exit the bus! The remaining four of us turned to each other with expressions of confusion. Where were we headed? Why didn't they wait a moment for us to dismount? We quickly scrambled to the front of the bus. Some of the girls hollered to me to tell the driver to stop, but one thing I've learned about travel here in Tanzania is that one just must be patient and not question things too much, because usually the driver has reason for the decisions he makes. I say usually. We rode until the next stop on that street, which was not very far, and then literally jumped from the bus to the sidewalk, not wanting to be stuck on that rapidly-leaving vehicle! Our teammates were running down the hill to catch up with us. We had a good laugh after the conundrum was over.

The two girls who have been at Kibidula for longer talk often about this Indian restaurant in Iringa called "Hasty Tasty." They said it is worth the trip to Iringa simply to eat lunch there. Hearing that it sometimes closes in the afternoon on Sundays, we decided we should walk there before doing anything else. Asked directions of the locals and bought some beautiful fabric before we made it to where the restaurant stood, only to find it was closed. Apparently the owners had gone to Dar and wouldn't be back in business until the next day.

Well, well! The girls who had been there were disappointed, but I was excited to see where our culinary adventure would lead us!


Upon hearing that "Hasty Tasty" was closed, we all decided we weren't too hungry yet, anyway. We looked at a few roadside shops where things were ridiculously priced for us "tourists," and then shopped in a local Masai market where things were a bit more reasonable and one could actually argue prices. I was in my glory! I love going back-and-forth, arguing a price with one of the locals, especially when I don't really need to purchase the item.


We eventually decreased the amount of cash we had on-hand and decided maybe we should try to find somewhere to eat. Asking the few "wazungu" (white people) around where there might be a local rice-and-beans joint led us to "Four Seasons." There we enjoyed rice, beans, cooked greens, and fresh mango juice-a delicious birthday meal! Cost less than the bus ride, too! The girls sang to me as we sat around the table, which incited curiosity in one of the employees. He came over and asked, "So, who was born today?" I got a good inward chuckle out of the way that question was asked. One of the girls pointed out that the birthday girl was me and jokingly asked the man, "Are you going to give her a birthday cake?" He asked how long we would be in town. If we could come back later, he said, he would try to make me something.


Wish we could have stuck around for a while. I would have been interested in seeing what he concocted. Needing to leave Iringa early enough in the afternoon to account for the travel back to Kibidula, we trekked to the local bus station.


There we had a bit of a time trying to understand the bus schedule, as told to us by several bus company workers. The time here is like Bible time: noon is referred to as six o'clock, three in the afternoon as nine o'clock. When we finally got across to them in our broken Swahili what time we needed to leave by and that we wanted to be on one of the larger buses, we followed one of the guys back to his "bus station" and purchased from him tickets that would get us back to Mafinga. It was during our wait there that I decided maybe I should put on some sunscreen.

Yeah, that makes sense, Ashley: wait until afternoon, when you've already been sunburned to apply the sunscreen you brought. Smart. But that's a twenty-one-year-old Ashley for you. Having time before the next bus departed, we trekked the short distance to the local Sunday market, where one can find almost anything imaginable.


Lots of baskets and beautiful fabrics to be found, along with a host of other things: shoes, backpacks, sunglasses, wallets,. lots to look at.

Hurrying back to the bus stop, we found a bus that matched the company we had purchased the tickets from. But wait! This wasn't one of the bigger buses that would travel quickly to Mafinga! This was one of the smaller ones that would stop every few yards to pick up and drop off passengers! That's not what we wanted! Our brave, Swahili-speaking teammate took it upon herself to have a good talking-to with the guy who sold us the tickets. Then we climbed aboard the small bus. We were the only passengers on the bus.


After sitting there for about 15 minutes, we thought maybe we should ask what time we were supposed to be departing. What?! In an hour! That's not what we had been told at all! Augh! We lumbered off the bus to stand in the center of attention once more as we tried to figure out where we were supposed to be and when. We were told a bigger bus would be coming at a later time. We trekked back to the market area, then returned to find that bigger bus. None to be found. The guy who sold us the tickets was nowhere to be found, either. By this time, some of the girls were quite upset with him for not selling us the tickets we had asked for. I didn't really mind, as long as we made it back to Kibidula that evening. We conversed with the nearby bus workers and couldn't get anywhere. We stood there, as if on display, a bunch of confused white girls who weren't really sure what to do next. Then, one of the guys suddenly pointed to a nearby bus, already packed with people and headed to Mafinga, and practically dragged us aboard. Might have been the last bus to Mafinga that day. We weren't sure whether to board or not, as the bus company didn't match the one we had purchased our tickets from. We didn't want to have to pay again, but figured we might not have much of a choice. Climbing aboard, we found the only vacant seats to be the ones nobody else wanted: the seats in the back of the bus that were quite worn out. The seats weren't really able to be sat on. The bench tipped toward the floor, making it an uncomfortable balancing act of half-standing-half-sitting, so one did not slide off the front of the seat.


The bus soon pulled out of the station and began the long journey back to Mafinga. We would have had a relaxing ride back, except that a man who had been drinking soon boarded the bus and insisted that he sit on the back bench with us. We greeted him in Swahili, and then we girls returned to conversing with each other in English. The man, speaking quite clear English, soon asked us why we were speaking English with each other. Didn't we know we were in Tanzania? Then why weren't we speaking only Swahili?? I tried to reason with him that when he was with his friends, didn't he speak Swahili with them, because that's what they all knew as a first language? And we all knew English as our first language, so we. He would hear none of it. Needless to say, we were much relieved to reach Mafinga and disembark on the next portion of our journey home. Only, had we known what that would entail, we may have been glad to remain on that bus a little longer!

A quick stop to purchase some fresh fruit at the market, and then we were ready to board the last dala-dala toward home. Or, we thought we were ready to board that dala-dala. every seat was taken and the aisle was crowded with passengers and heavy bags of grain. Where were we to fit? We soon found standing room, only to discover that we were not the last people to board this vessel! By the time the loaded vehicle pulled away from Mafinga, I counted forty-one people I could see and estimated about twenty more that were blocked from my view. (We later counted the number of seats to see what the maximum capacity of this vehicle was supposed to

be-twenty-one.) What a ride! The being-packed-like-sardines-ness didn't really bother me so much. What bothered me is that the windows of the dala-dalas do not open. I could picture us all fainting from lack of oxygen and it taking so long to extricate us from the bus that we wouldn't be able to be revived. One of the girls, poor thing, is claustrophobic. I don't know how she survived. People were sitting and standing on one another, belongings and purchases squeezed in any nook and cranny that a part of a person was not occupying. Because the floor of the aisle was packed with sacks of grain, I could not even stand upright, but had to bend my head to keep it from smacking the roof when we would hit a pothole. We travelled at the speed of a snail. It's a wonder the dala-dala could even move with that heavy of a load! Anytime we stopped, we prayed that no one else would be getting on, but someone getting off was almost as great an ordeal...


In order for someone to move through the bus to one of two doors, he or she must step on, over, or around about twenty other people. Then, if that person owned any large packages, those must also be found and passed from person-to-person until all that belonged to that person was safely off the bus. And so the story went for I-don't-know-how-many-hours! Once some seats had been vacated, I was able to actually sit down for a while. The air seemed a little more breathe-able, that few inches lower. I sat next to a lady and her baby. That made the time pass more quickly, as I was able to talk with and befriend them. Upon reaching the village of Matanana, everyone and everything was finally off the bus-except for us and our belongings.


Matanana is the closest village to Kibidula, and is usually the last stop of the bus, but we really hoped we wouldn't have to get off there and walk the two hours back to our house. Because there were six of us girls and another lady (Mama Temboh) who were going back to Kibidula, the driver agreed to drive us the remaining distance for 500 Tsh apiece. Certainly! I was more than willing to pay thirty cents and not have to walk two hours in the dark without a flashlight! I've never been more excited to be back to our house.


We were absolutely exhausted, hungry, and travel-worn. Upon entering the house, I discovered that some little angels had visited while I was gone and had left me some beautiful bouquets of flowers and a crayon-drawn poster that read "Happy Birthday Ashley!" I was so surprisedly-delighted. And so ended the first of my birth-days.

Chome Trip - End of January 2014


The Chome trip was an incredible experience.  Can't imagine all I would have missed out on if I hadn't gone. It was like a huge reunion, except even better, because I never knew when-- or where--friends would show up. I searched the faces of small children to see who I remembered playing ball toss and other games with on previous trips. Was I ever surprised to see one of those faces on a young man who was nearly as tall as myself! "Little" Jon is now a Form 2 student at Chome Secondary School-one of the young boys I was playing with last year! Wow! Not a little boy any more, but a young man. My friends from Chome are some of my closest friends in the whole world: friends with whom I can afford to be myself. We laugh an incredible lot, we discuss ideas, and we also cry together.
One of those heart-aching moments was when I asked Godwin if we might have time (in the one day he was with us in Chome) to visit his step-grandmother. With deep sadness in his eyes, he told me that his grandmother had passed away-just last month. Whew. I was not expecting that. He did, however, want to go visit her grave, and so invited me to go along. Another friend, Sean Pious, joined us. The freshly-dug grave was still studded with flowers that had dried in the sun during the days since the funeral. We stood silently, side-by-side, many thoughts coursing through our minds. For me, that moment brought back memories of my uncle's funeral. For Sean Pious, it was a staunch reminder of his father's death, four years ago now. For Godwin, defeat filled his heart.

His step-grandmother (he felt) was the only person he lived for, the only person who really believed in him. Now, she is gone. Our differences melted away as we shared in one another's pain.

As we left the gravesite in deep contemplation, we stopped by Godwin's mother's house. His stepfather, who is quite abusive to Godwin, was away, so we were safe to enter. Godwin's mother insisted on making us something to eat. Upon hearing that we weren't really hungry, she decidedly set about making us some "chai" (tea). Drinking our tea, we shared more of the memories on our hearts. It hurts sometimes to recall painful experiences, but as we talked, healing was felt. Sean Pious shared with me more of the details of his father's death. He has laid aside his own goals in life in order to provide for his family-especially his "young ones" (brother and sister). It was through tear-filled eyes that I told both he and Godwin how much I admire their courage. They have had so many trials in their lives, yet they refuse to give up. Yes, there have been times when they were distraught about the future, but they have chosen instead to dwell on what they CAN do to make a difference in the lives of those around them. As I was commending these young men, Godwin's mother began to cry. She doesn't speak much English, so I knew she wasn't responding to overhearing our conversation. Godwin explained to me how she was crying because she remembered the Adventist World Radio that I had brought to his step-grandmother last year. That gift had meant so much to her-apparently to the whole family. I thought my heart would break, as we cried together.

Their pain was so fresh.  It really struck me that here was a life upon whom I could have no more impact than I'd already had. For her, the Book of Life was closed, the story had been written. finished.

Before we left, Godwin's mother brought to me a live hen, wrapped in a plastic bag, all ready for the trek back down the mountain. Apparently it is custom here to give a guest a chicken, either to be prepared to eat while they are there, or to take back home with them. With much gratitude (though a bit of trepidation), I accepted the gift. This hen was much livelier than one I had been given before.